Thursday, November 22, 2007

Brazilian Wax For Men Wikipedia

Sports

Sports questionnaire from the workshop Niktomuža over time cause a chain reaction (add at least Forest , Koyama and Conrad Máselník ) and so do your bit to mill and contributes I:

Favorite Athletes: Lance Armstrong, Michael Rasmussen , Paula Radcliffe

least favorite athletes: football - especially Slovak (© Forest :)

greatest sporting success : to that sport (despite the advanced age, and hence the social inappropriateness of that act)

biggest sporting disappointment : Rasmussen's withdrawal from the Tour de France 2007

greatest sports experience (for yourself) : Dan Orálek me when he made during a round of marathon Stromovka; presvišťal ran around me like a dozen

greatest sports experience (in TV) : attacks Lance Armstrong in Tour de France stages ending climb to the top - especially the one from 2003 to Luz Ardiden when Lance decided after the fall of TdF; performance of Michael Rasmussen 2007 TdF

Favorite TV show about sports : very wathing TV, but three the July weeks are traditionally the Tour de France

most popular sports magazines : Velo , sometimes Muscle & Fitness

most popular movies about the sport : Rocky + some stone ones;)

Favorite song on Sport : Guano Apes : Lords of the Boards

first book about the sport : but it was very long ago - something about training hockey players of the 60s, in the modern history of my sport to be Lance Armstrong: My return to life

Last (for now) book on the sport : Miloš Škorpil : How elapse marathon in 100 days (also with a dedication:)

most valuable sports artifact : Collectibles of the nepotrpím; if I take the meaning literally, so my Merida

hardest sports injury : collar bone in three pieces, broken wrist

biggest sporting mistake: the assumption that when I played hockey ten years, and I know I can ride inlinoch to forty whatever terrain (more on hardest sports injuries :) assumption that a 3:30 marathon I have run cross-country training and without

biggest sporting sin: so. art during the period of study at university

Najbizardnejší sports experience: my second cross country race (12km), when I was in the TF200 predbiehali pensioner and I have not really accelerate

biggest sports dream (once) : to win the Tour de France;) ; reálne potom vyšlapať na Biely kríž pod 20 minút ( 18:56 )

Najväčší športový sen (dnes) : maratón pod 3

Najväčší športový sen (v budúcnosti) : maratón hlbšie pod 3; IM; vyskúšať si niektoré z etáp TdF

Monday, October 22, 2007

Pokemon Shiny Gold Help

questionnaire under 3:30 Marathon - under 3:22 Marathon

Do Prahy som pricestoval plný nedôvery v samého seba: celý týždeň som sa necítil vo forme, navyše moje bežecké sebavedomie značne podkopalo i predzávodné znižovanie intenzity a objemov. Expectations were pessimistic, but reality Prague with morning temperatures around 1 ° C was still drstnejšia. I had two days of conditioning and the majority of brain power took the question what to wear?

At the start of the Prague Marathon in Stromovka I left reconciled with the fact that I will run in two shirts, long sleeve jacket in combination with the wind. I did not believe his eyes when the other guys in the locker room pripínali starting number directly on the shirt. While I have considered them a bad turn and I was left numb crowd - well I did. In another case, I threatened to severe dehydration and even sunburn. Not that the weather has changed, but the average heart rate 180bpm, my 88% maximum, can produce enough heat. At the end more than I would have liked. Handy fell even sponge with water, to which I originally vypliešťal eyes in disbelief.

subjective assessment of the race is rather negative. I was perhaps guilty of any fundamental errors, usually preceded by marathon Omladina forewarned: I burn rate, competed with others, power-power to hold fast the group, ignoring pulse, blindly trusting data from GPS, ate and drank by feeling. Thanks mentioned shit I managed something with which I really did not foresee: improving personal highs of more than 34 minutes, time 3:21:56 . Over the years, so unexpected, that I have neither the target photo. My maid of the photographer is the destination arrived sometime around 3:23:)

welcome the extraordinary race through the prism of emotion. Finally marathon gave me what he promised and at the first attempt failed. Stress, fear, flushing, euphoria, goosebumps, the need to delete everything, Butt, and blurred glares ahead and concentrate on a single target. At the finish I was so moved that I almost dropped a tear.

pleasant and less pleasant phenomenon continued even after returning to base camp. This was less pleasant walking four in an effort to find some support, which helped me to bring back to Council Anthropoid, thus the two legs. Conversely nice was that I did not rate so highly neprepálil. Half a 1:40:40 (4:46 / km), second in 1:41:16 (4:48 / km).

After the first marathon I have included ďakovačku and despite this achievement when I feel a certain awkwardness, and do so now. Thank you my dear readers, just because you were the main driver in the time when I wanted to because of physical or motivational reasons pack and run it just for pleasure . Plus I add one more special thank you - it belongs to Miss reader from Prague, not only for providing the base camp:)

It is too early to grandiloquent statements, but may be this series a couple of months will bring a second set of revised entitled "Marathon under 3:15":)))

Marathon Five

I have long nurtured hope in themselves to time under 3:20, which I rushed forward. The sobering fact is given directly to the GPS measurement deviation was more than 500 meters. According to GPS, but I finished the marathon in 3:19 and some change:)

Art at the Prague marathon www.behej.com


Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Cheat Pokemon Version Saphire Gpsphone

Marathon under 3:30 - the last training

vs. Plan. implementation:)

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Driver Mercury Tv Card 7130 Hl

Marathon under 3:30 - When the power of self-confidence

It's not very wise or useful, but my psyche is needed. Test 30 km marathon, the pace I graduated last week. I am satisfied with the results and have you even dare say that if I are not going any unexpected mishaps, so three and a half hour limit breaks.

The mentioned distance I climbed for two hours and spend twenty-six, thus at 4:52 / km with an average heartbeat 167bpm (the race itself, I expect average somewhere between 171 - 174bpm). Joy to me spoiled in part on the speed of the subsequent analysis of individual sections, which show unmistakable signs of slowing down, but not so tragic, that I would do it in a coveted time nedoklepal . Furthermore, we assume that their tax will almost certainly chose well 3% dehydration, whereas for practical reasons I had to have only 3 deciliter water. More in the charts ...

Speed \u200b\u200b- 1km sections


uniform speed does not tell me much;)

Speed \u200b\u200b- 2km sections


7th - 15 kilometer, I too tried to catch up loss caused jog during the first two

Speed \u200b\u200b- 5km sections


in shredded sections of 5 km is already very evident slowdown

average heart rate - 5km sections


average heart rate showed no signs much concern:)

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Scat Gratis Movies Brasileiros

not during and pen

precisely keyboard. Marathon in Kosice be ívntom that for six months recorded in the annals of my running career, as a place of personal records in running marathons. For more specified reasons it will Prague (I hope and firmly believe). However, this does not prevent me to become at least part of his written word: through my Copyright first instinct aroused for www.behej.com .

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

Pokemon Deluge.com Login

Marathon under 3:30 - a change of plans

man intends, shit changed;) So much for summary. A longer version is that I drew too laces on sneakers, I'm making the little finger produced nor the blister, but literally burn a higher degree (odd that while running I felt nothing at all), who sent me for a week in advance . I know that for my professional level is absolutely incomprehensible schoolgirl error, but happened.

To put it too nenaťahoval: still insists the marathon under 3:30, but it will not be in Manchester, but about two weeks later in Stromovka, 20 October . Missing me that runs high volumes and at responsibility for material conditions of families of my agents, managers, coaches, and not least the sponsors of the Košice-shirt just marry!

Last week I attended training for marathon pace 4:48 / km with an average heartbeat 171bpm, ie, in 1:41:25. Including jog and výklusu It was on that day 30 km. I ran it all lightly, nor interfere with the storm, or a muddy lane, even a few kilograms of mud, which when running on my navešalo. Tingling in the knees on the second day already hampered - also something you have been a good two years. Attach to the cold weather, a tiny warm-up, but I'll be wiser after the next thirty, who waits for me on Thursday. The weekend comes to an even more enlarged. Overall weekly it should give way 90 km. The the last digit of the counter stopped at 87, which incidentally is the highest weekly záhul since I have.

Halfmarathon kilometers after


around to see that every 5 km I ate when swallowing the gel can be considered as one;)

Thursday, September 27, 2007

How Do You Check If Boiler Thermostat Is Broken

30 km mud;)


must be experienced ...

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Electric Rollerblades

“WHY CIVILIZATION?“


                                                             “WHY CIVILIZATION?“
COMMUNIQUE #23 FROM DISORDERLY CONDUCT #6

We are often told that our dreams are unrealistic, our demands impossible, that we are basically out of our fuckin' minds to even propose such a ridiculous concept as the "destruction of civilization". So, we hope this brief statement may shed some light on why we will settle for nothing less than a completely different reality than what is forced upon us today. We believe that the infinite possibilities of the human experience extend both forwards and backwards. We wish to collapse the discord between these realities. We strive for a "future primitive" reality, one which all of our ancestors once knew, and one we may come to know: a pre/post-technological, pre/post-industrial, pre/post-colonial, pre/post-capitalist, pre/post-agricultural, and even pre/post-cultural reality - when we were once, and may again be, WILD!
We feel it is necessary to raise some fundamental questions as to where we are now, how we have gotten to this point, where we are headed, and perhaps most importantly, where we have come from. This should not to be seen as irrefutable evidence, the Answers, or prescriptions for liberation; but instead, as things to consider while we fight against domination or attempt to create another world.
We believe anarchy to be the ultimate liberatory experience and our natural condition. Before, and outside of, civilization (and it's corrupting influences), humans were, and are, for lack of better terms, anarchistic. For most of our history we lived in small-scale groupings which made decisions face-to-face, without the mediation of government, representation, or even the morality of an abstract thing called culture. We communicated, perceived, and lived in an unmediated, instinctual, and direct way. We knew what to eat, what healed us, and how to survive. We were part of the world around us. There was no artificial separation between the individual, the group, and the rest of life.
In the larger scope of human history, not long ago (some say 10,000 to 12,000 years ago), for reasons we can only speculate about (but never really know), a shift began to occur in a few groupings of humans. These humans began to trust less in the earth as a "giver of life", and began to create a distinction between themselves and the earth. This separation is the foundation of civilization. It is not really a physical thing, although civilization has some very real physical manifestations; but it is more of an orientation, a mindset, a paradigm. It is based on the control and domination of the earth and its inhabitants.
Civilization's main mechanism of control is domestication. It is the controlling, taming, breeding, and modification of life for human benefit (usually for those in power or those striving for power). The domesticating process began to shift humans away from a nomadic way of life, towards a more sedentary and settled existence, which created points of power (taking on a much different dynamic than the more temporal and organic territorial ground), later to be called property. Domestication creates a totalitarian relationship with plants and animals, and eventually, other humans. This mindset sees other life, including other humans, as separate from the domesticator, and is the rationalization for the subjugation of women, children, and for slavery. Domestication is a colonizing force on non-domesticated life, which has brought us to the pathological modern experience of ultimate control of all life, including its genetic structures.
A major step in the civilizing process is the move towards an agrarian society. Agriculture creates a domesticated landscape, a shift from the concept that "the Earth will provide" to "what we will produce from the Earth". The domesticator begins to work against nature and her cycles, and to destroy those who are still living with and understanding her. We can see the beginnings of patriarchy here. We see the beginnings of not only the hoarding of land, but also of its fruits. This notion of ownership of land and surplus creates neverbefore experienced power dynamics, including institutionalized hierarchies and organized warfare. We have moved down an unsustainable and disastrous road.

Over the next thousands of years this disease progresses, with its colonizing and imperialist mentality eventually consuming most of the planet with, of course, the help of the religious-propagandists, who try to assure the "masses" and the "savages" that this is good and right. For the benefit of the colonizer, peoples are pitted against other peoples. When the colonizer's words do not suffice, the sword is never far away with its genocidal collision. As the class distinctions become more solidified, there becomes only those who have, and those who do not. The takers and the givers. The rulers and the ruled. The walls get raised. This is how we are told it has always been; but most people somehow know this isn't right, and there have always been those who have fought against it.
The war on women, the war on the poor, the war on indigenous and land-based people, and the war on the wild are all interconnected. In the eyes of civilization, they are all seen as commodities - things to be claimed, extracted, and manipulated for power and control. They are all seen as resources; and when they are of use no longer to the power-structure, they are discarded into the landfills of society. The ideology of patriarchy is one of control over self-determination and sustainability, of reason over instinct and anarchy, and of order over freedom and wildness. Patriarchy is an imposition of death, rather than a celebration of life. These are the motivations of patriarchy and civilization; and for thousands of years they have shaped the human experience on every level, from the institutional to the personal, while they have devoured life.

The civilizing process became more refined and efficient as time went on. Capitalism became its mode of operation, and the gauge of the extent of domination and the measure of what still is needed to be conquered. The entire planet was mapped and lands were enclosed. The nation-state eventually became the proposed societal grouping, and it was to set forth the values and goals of vast numbers of peoples, of course, for the benefit of those in control. Propaganda by the state, and the by now, less powerful church, started to replace some (but certainly not most) of the brute force with on-the-surface benevolence and concepts like citizenry and democracy. As the dawn of modernity approached, things were really getting sick.
Throughout the development of civilization, technology always played an ever-expanding role. In fact, civilization's progress has always been directly connected to, and determined by, the development of ever more complex, efficient, and innovative technologies. It is hard to tell whether civilization pushes technology, or vice-versa. Technology, like civilization, can be seen more as a process or complex system than as a physical form. It inherently involves division of labor, resource extraction, and exploitation by power (those with the technology). The interface with, and result of, technology is always an alienated, mediated, and heavily-loaded reality. No, technology is not neutral. The values and goals of those who produce and control technology are always embedded within it. Different from simple tools, technology is connected to a larger process which is infectious and is propelled forward by its own momentum. This technological system always advances, and always needs to be inventing new ways to support, fuel, maintain, and sell itself. A key part of the modern-techno-capitalist structure is industrialism; the mechanized system of production built on centralized power, and the exploitation of people and nature. Industrialism cannot exist without genocide, ecocide, and imperialism. To maintain it, coercion, land evictions, forced labor, cultural destruction, assimilation, ecological devastation, and global trade are accepted and seen as necessary. Industrialism's standardization of life objectifies and commodifies it, viewing all life as a potential resource. Technology and industrialism have opened the door to the ultimate domestication of life - the final stage of civilization - the age of neo-life.
So now we are in the post-modern, neo-liberal, bio-tech, cyber-reality, with an apocalyptic future and new world order. Can it really get much worse? Or has it always been this bad? We are almost completely domesticated, except for the few brief moments (riots, creeping through the dark to destroy machinery or civilization's infrastructure, connecting with other species, swimming naked in a mountain stream, eating wild foods, love-making, ...add your own favorites) when we catch a glimpse of what it would be like to go feral. Their "global village" is more like a global amusement park or global zoo, and it's not a question of boycotting it 'cause we're all in it, and it's in all of us. And we can't just break out of our own cages (although we're helpless unless we start there), but we gotta bust down the whole fuckin' place, feast on the zoo keepers and those who run and benefit from it, reconnect with our instincts, and become wild again! We cannot reform civilization, green it up, or make it more fair. It is rotten to the core. We don't need more ideology, morality, fundamentalism, or better organization to save us. We must save ourselves. We have to live according to our own desires. We have to connect with ourselves, those we care about, and the rest of life. We have to break out of, and break down, this reality.


"Why is civilization?"
Communique # 23 of Disorderly Conduct # 6

often tell us that our dreams are unrealistic, our demands impossible that we are completely out of our vyjebaných thinks only propose such a ridiculous concept such as "e destroyed civilization." So we hope that this brief statement throws some light then why neuspojíme with nothing less than a completely different reality than that which is forced upon us today. We believe that the infinite possibilities of human experience, stretching forward and backward. We want a fall of inconsistency between these realities. We want a reality "future primitivism", such that once knew all of our ancestors, and you get to know: Before / post-technological, prior / post-industrial, prior / post-colonial, prior / post-capitalist, prior / post -agrarian and even pre / post-cultural reality - where we sometimes have, and maybe someday we will, Wild!
We feel it is necessary to ask some fundamental questions such as where we are now, how we got to this point where we are heading, and perhaps most importantly, we came to the Framework Convention. It should not be considered as irrefutable evidence, answers, or recipes for relief, but instead as a matter of discretion, while fighting against the domestication of, or attempt to create another world.
We believe that anarchy is a major liberating experience and our natural condition. Before and beyond, civilization (and its impact zahnívajúcich), people were and are, for lack of better terms, anarchistic. During most of our history, we lived in small groups, which enable decision-making in the face, without the mediation of the government, representation, or even morality of abstract things such as culture. We communicated, perceived and lived, we have an immediate, instinctive and direct way. We knew what we eat, what we managed to survive and heal. We were part of the world around us. Not There is no artificial separation between individuals, groups and the rest of life.
some time before human history, not so long ago (some say 10,000 to 12,000 years ago), for reasons of which we can only speculate (and never know exactly), slip began to appear in several clusters of people. These people no longer believe the country more as a "giver of life", and began to create the difference between them and the ground. This separation is the foundation of civilization. It's not really natural, even though civilization has very few natural terms, but rather it is the orientation, approach, design. It is based on the control and domination over the earth and its inhabitants.
Domestication is the main mechanism of control that is civilization. It's control, repression, education and modification of life for human benefit (usually those in power or those who want to achieve it). Domestikačný process to move people from realizing the nomadicity way of life, and to sedavejšej usadenejšej existence, which creates a place of power (takes a more distinct dynamics as dočasnejšie and territorial organickejšie area), later called the Assets. Domestication creates a totalitarian relationship with plants and animals and possibly others. This view sees a different life, including other people, as distinct from domestikátora. A rationalization is the dominance of women, children, and for slavery. Domestication is a colonizing force on non-domesticated life, which led us to a pathological modern skúsenoti final check of all life, including genetic structures.
important step in the civilizing process is the shift to agrarian society. Agriculture creates a domesticated landscape, gliding from the concept of "Earth provides" to "what we produce from the earth." Domestikátor begins to work against nature and its cycles, and destroy those who are still living with it and understand it. Here we see the beginnings of patriarchy. We see not only the accumulation of land, but also its fruit. The idea of \u200b\u200bholding the country and creates a surplus of inexperienced nikdypredtým dynamics of power, including institutionalized hierarchies and organized military conflict. We started the devastating and unsustainable path. During
nasledujúcich tisícov rokov robí táto choroba pokroky, so svojou kolonizačnou a imperialistickou mentalitou napokon konzumujúc väčšinu planéty s pomocou, samozrejme, náboženských propagandistov, ktorý sa snažia uistiť „masy“ a „divochov“, že to je dobré a správne. K úžitku kolonizátorov sú ľudia postavený proti iným ľuďom. Keď nepostačujú slová kolonizátora, nikdy nie je ďaleko meč s jeho genocídnym účinkom. Kým sa viac upevňujú triedne rozdiely, stávajú sa len tí čo majú, a tí čo nemajú. Tí čo and take what they give. Rulers and control. They build the walls. Here we say that it was always thus, but most people somehow know that this is not correct, and have always been those who fought against it.
war against women, war against the poor, the war against indigenous people and natural, and the war against wilderness and wilderness are all interconnected. In the eyes of civilization are all seen as commodities - things to requiring the acquisition and manipulation for power and control. All are seen as resources, and when no longer are beneficial to the power structure, are discarded in landfills company. Ideology of patriarchy is an ideology of control over self-determination and sustainability ideology causes of instinct and anarchy, and order ideology of freedom and wildness. Patriarchy is the imposition of the death, instead of celebration of life. These are the motivations of patriarchy and civilization, and for thousands of years shaped human experience on every level, from the institutional to the personal, while ate life.
process of civilization over time became more subtle and more efficient. Capitalism was the manner of operation, scale and extent of domination and size of everything is yet to be mastered. The entire planet has been charted and the country were limited. The nation-state actually has proposed social group, and clarify values \u200b\u200band goals for the vast numbers of people, of course, for the benefit of those who controlled it. Propaganda State, and now less a more powerful church, started to replace some (but certainly not most) of brute force for leniency and superficial concepts such as citizenship and democracy. When approaching dawn of modernity, things became really sick.
During the development of civilization, technology has always played an expanding role. In fact, the development of civilization has always been directly linked to and driven by the development of complex, efficient and innovative technologies. It is difficult to say whether the technology supports civilization or vice-versa. Technology, as a civilization, is better seen as a process or a complex system, rather than physical form. In essence, involves the division of labor, resource extraction and exploitation of power (those owned technology). Linking a result of technology is always stolen, and hard-mediated reality. No, technology is neutral. Values \u200b\u200band objectives of those who produce and control technology are always embedded in it. Different from simple tools, technology is connected to a larger process, which is contagious and is driven forward its own cadence. This technological system is always evolving, and must always inventing new ways to promote, fulfill, keep and sell. An important part of modern techno-capitalist structure is industrialism; mechanized production system based on centalizovanej power and exploitation of people and nature. Industrialism can not exist without genocide, and imperialism ekocídy. To sustain it is accepted by coercion, eviction from their own land, forced labor, cultural devastation, assimilation, ecological devastation and global trade and looks at it as a necessity. Standardization of life because of industrialism that portrays life and reshaping, seeing all life as a potential source. Industrialism and technology have opened the door to complete the domestication of life - the final stage of civilization - the age of neo-life.
So now we are in a postmodern, neo-liberal, biotechnology, cyberrealite apocalyptic future with a new world order. Can it be worse? Or was it always so bad? We are almost totally domesticated, except for those few moments (Riot, crawling through the night because of the destruction of machinery or infrastructure of civilization, the connection with other species, swimming naked in a mountain stream, eating wild food, making love to ... add your own favorite activity), which captured a glimpse of what it would be like to be wild again. Their "global village" is a global rather than a theme park or the zoo global, and it is a question of boycott, because we have it all, and she is equally in all of us. And we can not easily escape from our own cages (although we are powerless, whereas in fact we do not), but we have to smash this place vyjebané, feast at the zoo administrators and those who benefit from it, reconnect with our instincts and become wild again! Civilization we can not reform, greener it or make it more fair. It is rotten to the ground. We do not need more ideology, morality, fundamentalism or better organization that saved us. We must save ourselves. We live by our own desires. We need to connect with ourselves, with those for whom we care and the rest of life. We must be free and destroy this reality.

action is needed.
In short, civilization is waging war with life. We are fighting for their lives a preto vyhlasujeme vojnu civilizácii!

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Chlorine Dioxide Mouthwash Singapore

Marathon under 3:30 - claims training?

I got it for him: hardest training interval training - 5 x 2 km at race pace for 10 km. I was afraid of pain, I like the. But I was very afraid of injury that would de facto whistle for full marathon effort. Health ailments are not answered yet, so I hope that in the morning I wake up in the same condition as I save.

first time on the track

runway I have very much in love and thanks to my personal trainer to it or do not. Mr. Trainer is a very sophisticated, connects to satellites in orbit, every moment kadečo beeps and prints to its modest display. He can even count circuits without I touched him. Fact class. But on the other hand, what would it be like for an athlete, if I can track at least once neomakal? And I also feel. Coincidentally it was on the same circuit, during which I násťročenstva I run 12-minútovky. Those 12 to 13 lines were the top endurance. Today I encircles the 64-times and I do not feel that this would be something special. Simply reference variables are changed a bit:)

practically ran itself . I can not explain it. Could it weather? I do not understand. Moreover, yesterday I was running downhill, I was not kept at bay and spent nearly 14 minutes of anaerobic threshold. The first four intervals, I had to restrain - every moment I was under 3:40 / km, the last one has been on blood . I wanted to get under 3:40 / km, I start politely blows and the rest Interalia I had to do, so I was under 3:50 / km remained.

time
TF average
TF max
speed (km / h)
speed (min / km)
0:07:41
189
196
15,6
3:50/km
0:07:34
189
194
15,8
3:47/km
0:07:35
188
197
15,8
3:48/km
0:07:26
188
195
16.1
3:43 / km
0:07: 31
192
200
16.0
3:45 / km

I will not play anything: I have of myself really good feeling. Particularly in contrast with themselves a half years ago, when I run under 5:00 / km received in severe oxygen debt and run any distance under four minutes was unrealistic. I do not see the link between intervals and marathon. And if there is one. The answer I would have to wait until Saturday thirty kilometers and can be up to the seventh October .


Monday, September 10, 2007

Pain In Ankles And Alcohol

Marathon under 3:30 - repair

Correction: I previous week due to network elf published incorrect training plan and thus I was able to introduce many, for what is honest I apologize. Filling last week should be up is intense polihovanie body nezriadené prežieranie is a meditation on the meaning and place of sport in human life. plan I have consistently respected and I am therefore on track to humiliation dream three and a half hours of tees:)

What was it, I terazky marathoner and therefore this week through with six trénigov read as follows:

Monday
10 km aerobic
Tuesday
12 km aerobic
Wednesday
3 km jog
5x2km in the 10km race pace
3 km výklus
Thursday
10 km aerobic
Friday
leave
Saturday
30 km
Sunday
8 km regenerative
TOTAL
86 km

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Hand Foot And Mouth 11 Days

Derrick Jensen: “Actions Speak Louder Than Words” (1998)

Derrick Jensen: “Actions Speak Louder Than Words” (1998)

Every morning when I wake up I ask myself whether I should write or blow up a dam. I tell myself I should keep writing, though I’m not sure that’s right. I’ve written books and done activism, but it is neither a lack of words nor a lack of activism that is killing salmon here in the Northwest. It’s the dams.

Anyone who knows anything about salmon knows the dams must go. Anyone who knows anything about politics knows the dams will stay. Scientists study, politicians and business people lie and delay, bureaucrats hold sham public meetings, activists write letters and press releases, and still the salmon die.

Sadly enough, I’m not alone in my inability or unwillingness to take action. Members of the German resistance to Hitler from 1933 to 1945, for example, exhibited a striking blindness all too familiar: Despite knowing that Hitler had to be removed for a “decent” government to be installed, they spent more time creating paper versions of this theoretical government than attempting to remove him from power. It wasn’t a lack of courage that caused this blindness but rather a misguided sense of morals. Karl Goerdeler, for instance, though tireless in attempting to create this new government, staunchly opposed assassinating Hitler, believing that if only the two could sit face to face Hitler might relent.

We, too, suffer from this blindness and must learn to differentiate between real and false hopes. We must eliminate false hopes, which blind us to real possibilities. Does anyone really believe our protests will cause Weyerhaeuser or other timber transnationals to stop destroying forests? Does anyone really believe the same corporate administrators who say they “wish salmon would go extinct so we could just get on with living” (Randy Hardy of Bonneville Power Association) will act other than to fulfill their desires? Does anyone really believe a pattern of exploitation as old as our civilization can be halted legislatively, judicially or through means other than an absolute rejection of the mindset that engineers the exploitation, followed by actions based on that rejection? Does anybody really think those who are destroying the world will stop because we ask nicely or because we lock arms peacefully in front of their offices?

There can be few who still believe the purpose of government is to protect citizens from the activities of those who would destroy. The opposite is true:
Political economist Adam Smith was correct in noting that the primary purpose of government is to protect those who run the economy from the outrage of injured citizens. To expect institutions created by our culture to do other than poison waters, denude hillsides, eliminate alternative ways of living and commit genocide is unforgivably naive.

Many German conspirators hesitated to remove Hitler from office because they’d sworn loyalty to him and his government. Their scruples caused more hesitation than their fear. How many of us have yet to root out misguided remnants of a belief in the legitimacy of this government to which, as children, we pledged allegiance? How many of us fail to cross the line into violent resistance because we still believe that, somehow, the system can be reformed? And if we don’t believe that, what are we waiting for? As Shakespeare so accurately put it, “Conscience doth make cowards of us all.”

It could be argued that by comparing our government to Hitler’s I’m overstating my case. I’m not sure salmon would agree, nor lynx, nor the people of Peru, Irian Jaya, Indonesia, or any other place where people pay with their lives for the activities of our culture.

If we’re to survive, we must recognize that we kill by inaction as surely as by action. We must recognize that, as Hermann Hesse wrote, “We kill when we close our eyes to poverty, affliction or infamy. We kill when, because it is easier, we countenance, or pretend to approve of atrophied social, political, educational, and religious institutions, instead of resolutely combating them.”

The central - and in many ways only - question of our time is this: What are sane, appropriate and effective responses to outrageously destructive behavior? So often, those working to slow the destruction can plainly describe the problems. Who couldn’t? The problems are neither subtle nor cognitively challenging. Yet when faced with the emotionally daunting task of fashioning a response to these clearly insoluble problems, we generally suffer a failure of nerve and imagination. Gandhi wrote a letter to Hitler asking him to stop committing atrocities and was mystified that it didn’t work. I continue writing letters to the editor of the local corporate newspaper pointing out mistruths and am continually surprised at the next absurdity.

I’m not suggesting a well-targeted program of assassinations would solve all of our problems. If it were that simple, I wouldn’t be writing this essay. To assassinate Slade Gorton and Larry Craig, for example, two senators from the Northwest whose work may be charitably described as unremittingly ecocidal, would probably slow the destruction not much more than to write them a letter. Neither unique nor alone, Gorton and Craig are merely tools for enacting ecocide, as surely as are dams, corporations, chainsaws, napalm and nuclear weapons. If someone were to kill them, others would take their places. The ecocidal programs originating specifically from the damaged psyches of Gorton and Craig would die with them, but the shared nature of the impulses within our culture would continue full-force, making the replacement as easy as buying a new hoe.

Hitler, too, was elected as legally and “democratically” as Craig and Gorton. Hitler, too, manifested his culture’s death urge brilliantly enough to capture the hearts of those who voted him into power and to hold the loyalty of the millions who actively carried out his plans. Hitler, like Craig and Gorton, like George Weyerhaeuser and other CEOs, didn’t act alone. Why, then, do I discern a difference between them?

The current system has already begun to collapse under the weight of its ecological excesses, and here’s where we can help. Having transferred our loyalty away from our culture’s illegitimate economic and governmental entities and to the land, our goal must be to protect, through whatever means possible, the human and nonhuman residents of our homelands. Our goal, like that of a demolition crew on a downtown building, must be to help our culture collapse in place, so that in its fall it takes out as little life as possible.

Discussion presupposes distance, and the fact that we’re talking about whether violence is appropriate tells me we don’t yet care enough. There’s a kind of action that doesn’t emerge from discussion, from theory, but instead from our bodies and from the land. This action is the honeybee stinging to defend her hive; it’s the mother grizzly charging a train to defend her cubs; it’s Zapatista spokesperson Cecelia Rodriguez saying, “I have a question of those men who raped me. Why did you not kill me? It was a mistake to spare my life. I will not shut up - this has not traumatized me to the point of paralysis.” It’s Ogoni activist Ken Saro-Wiwa, murdered by the Nigerian government at the urging of Shell, whose last words were, “Lord, take my soul, but the struggle continues!” It’s those who participated in the Warsaw Ghetto uprising. It’s Crazy Horse, Sitting Bull and Geronimo. It’s salmon battering themselves against concrete, using the only thing they have, their flesh, to try to break down that which keeps them from their homes.

I don’t believe the question of whether to use violence is the right one. Instead, the question should be: Do you sufficiently feel the loss? So long as we discuss this in the abstract, we still have too much to lose. If we begin to feel in our bodies the immensity and emptiness of what we lose daily, intact natural communities, hours sold for wages, childhoods lost to violence, women’s capacity to walk unafraid, we’ll know precisely what to do.

in Earth First! Journal, May-June 1998, p. 5

Derrick Jensen: “Činy sú hlasnejšie než slová” (1998)

Každé ráno, keď sa zobudím, pýtam myself whether I should continue writing or go to blow up the dam. I tell myself that I should continue writing, although I'm not sure if this is correct. I wrote the book and stimulating for I, but it's not the lack of words or lack of activism, which kills salmon here in the northwest (pozn.prekl., In the USA). These are dams. Anyone who knows anything about salmon knows that the dams must go. Anyone who knows anything about politics knows that the dam will remain. Scientists study, politicians and businessmen lie and staying bureaucrats do sham public meetings, activists write letters and press releases, and salmon are still dying.

Unfortunately I am not alone with my inability or unwillingness to act. For example, members of the German resistance movement against Hitler from 1933 to 1945 showed tremendous blindness all too familiar: Despite the fact that they knew that Hitler should be removed to create a "decent" government spend more time creating paper versions of this theoretical government, instead of that it be removed. It was not lack of courage, which caused the blindness, but rather false sense of morality. Karl Goerdeler, for example, even though he was tireless in creating this new government steadfastly condemned the assassination of Hitler, believing that if it was sitting face to face, Hitler would be allowed.
We also suffer blindness and that we must learn to distinguish between true and false hope. We must eliminate false hopes that are blinding us to real possibilities. I believe someone is actually that our protests will cause that Weyerhaeuser or other transnational timber corporations stop destroying forests? I believe someone is actually that the same corporation administrators, who say that "we hope that salmon may die, so we just continue to live on" (Randy Hardy of the Bonneville Power Association) will act differently, and not so as to fulfill our desires? Someone actually believes it is possible to stop the pattern of exploitation is as old as our civilization legislative, judicial or other means than a complete rejection of thinking that constructs this exploitation, following actions based on that refusal? Someone actually believes that those who destroy world stop just because their so we kindly ask peacefully or because you can lock your hands in front of their offices?

Maybe some of those who still believe that the purpose of government is to protect its citizens against the activities of those who destroy. The opposite is true:
political economist Adam Smith was right when he said that the main purpose of government is to protect those who keep the economy from the wrath of disabled people. Expect institutions to do otherwise than to annoy the water, ridding the slopes of vegetation, eliminate alternative ways of life and committing genocide is unforgivable naive.

Many German conspirators hesitated in removing Hitler from office because they promised loyalty to him and his government. Their considerations have caused more hesitation than their fear. How many of us have yet to eradicate the false bottoms of faith in the legitimacy of this government, which we swear allegiance to children? How many of us fail to cross the border to violent resistance, because they still believe that this system can somehow reformovateľný? And if I do not believe so what are we waiting? As Shakespeare rightly said, "Thus conscience makes cowards of us all."

might say that comparing our government with Hitler, this overstates the case. I'm not sure he would agree on salmon, or features, nor the people of Peru, the Irian Jaya, Indonesia or in any other place where people pay with their lives for our cultural activities.
If we survive, we must realize that kill omissions as well as act. We must realize that, as Hermann Hesse wrote, "We kill when close our eyes to poverty, suffering or shame. We kill because it's easier to agree, or pretend to approve degenerate social, political, educational and religious institutions, instead, that we fought against them vigorously. "

main - and in many ways the only - issue of our time is this: What are reasonable, appropriate and effective response to the horribly destructive behavior? How often, those who are working to slow the destruction they can clearly describe the problems. Who would know? Problems are neither minor nor cognitively challenged. But even if we are faced with daunting task of creating an emotional response to this clearly inexplicable problems, generally suffer failure of nerve and imagination. Gandhi wrote to Hitler, where he was asked to stop committing atrocities and was confused when it did not work. I continue to send letters editor of the local corporate newspaper referring to untruths and I am constantly surprised by another absurdity.

not suggesting that well-directed program asasinácií solve all our problems. If it were that simple, now I would not write this essay. The assassination of Slade Gorton and Larry Craig, for example, two senators from the Northwest whose work could be kindly described as permanently ekocídna would delay the destruction of nothing more than to write them a letter. Neither sporadic nor yourself, Gorton and Craig are the only instruments for the enactment ekocídy, like dams, corporations, chain saws, napalm and nuclear weapons. If someone wanted to kill them, others would come to their place. Ekocídne programs that originate in the disturbed psyche of Gorton and Craig would have died with them, but common nature of the impulses within our culture would continue fully, which would make the exchange as easy as buying new hoes.

Hitler was also elected legally and "democratically" as Craig and Gorton. Hitler also showed a desire the death of his culture sufficiently clear that captivated the hearts of those who elected him to power and to maintain the loyalty of millions who actively implement its plans. Hitler, as Craig and Gorton, as George Weyerhaeuser and other corporations, directors, acted alone. Why then rozpozávam differences between them?

current system has already started crumble under the weight of their environmental sins, and this can help. Transfer our allegiance from illegitimate economic and governmental entities to our culture and country, our goal must be to protect, by any means possible, and mimoľudských human inhabitants of our country. Our goal as a target for demolition crews building downtown, help must be our culture fall in place when the fall took the lease of life.

talk presupposes distance, and the fact that we are talking whether violence is appropriate, suggests to me that is not sufficiently interested. There is kind of actions which are not emerge from the discussion of theory, but instead of our bodies and the earth. This action is bees that bites to protect their hive, the mother grizzly, which will build a train that defended their young, it is the Zapatistas hovorkiňa Cecelia Rodriguez, saying, "I have a question for the men who raped me. Why did you kill me? It was a mistake to save my life. I'm not going quietly - netraumatizovalo me to the extent of paralysis. "It is a strain of Ogoni activist Ken Saro-Wiwa, murdered by the Government of Niger at the urging of Shell, whose last words were, "Lord, take my soul, but the struggle will continue!" They're the ones who participated in the Warsaw ghetto uprising. It's Crazy Horse, Sitting Bull and Geronimo. These are the salmon hádžuci of concrete, using the only thing you have, your body, to try to break what keeps them away from their homes.

I do not believe that asked whether the use of violence is the right one. Instead, the question should be: Do you feel the loss sufficiently? While we shall discuss the abstract, we still have much to lose. If we feel in our bodies vastness and emptiness, what a day lost, intact natural communities, zapredané hours for pay, childhood lost to violence, the ability of women to walk without fear, we know exactly what to do.

The Earth First! Journal, May-June 1998, pg. 5

Monday, September 3, 2007

Painkillers For Bikini Waxing

Marathon under 3:30 - it makes sense?

do not be alarmed! I forfeited depressed, nor am I overtraining. The point is rather that for eight weeks for the marathon can not be trained to - certainly not the time under 3:30. Either that in itself I have already, or not . I can not shake the feeling that the more I mess up, how to improve. Slowly starting to fall Prelaunch paranoia and every cough, or small boliestka hypochondriac in me waking up. I do not understand why I run intervals, when the risk of injury is much higher for them. And certainly I can not imagine what all you need to go through a similar situation in elite athletes.

Milos Škorpil in one of the articles for behej.com wrote: "Marathon is a race against opponents. Marathon is run in which meet their resilience, that is the only opponent I'm myself." I add that I know in particular the resistance to it during training. The main objective is to survive in health training and the race itself only confirmed or refuted, if I had it or not.

training this week

Monday
leave
Tuesday
15 km aerobic
Wednesday
3 km jog
10x1 km at a pace of 10 km 3 km
výklus
Thursday
12 km free
Friday
leave
Saturday
30 km free
Sunday
8 km wild hockey or bike

TOTAL
73-81 km

Sunday, September 2, 2007

Which Razor Scooter Do I Get For My 4 Year Old

Marathon below 3.30 - the settlement date

D-Day is five weeks away. For now, this particular nasviedča calendar. Training morale slightly behind. Moreover, Convince yourself about it.

Week # 34: 20 8. - 26 8. 2007

Day
plan
fact
Monday
10 km free
10 km TF @ 157bpm
Tuesday
10 km free
10 km TF @ 157 bpm
Wednesday
2 km jog
4x1 km racing pace in the 10km (ie 4:20 min / km) 2 km
výklus
2 km jog
4x1 mile @ 3:50 / km
2 km výklus
Thursday
10 km free
11 km TF @ 152bpm
Friday
off
leave
Saturday
cross country weekend behej.com behej.com: 37 km uphill
Sunday
cross country weekend behej.com behej . com: 7.5 km free

Total:
  • running 85 km for 8 hours.

Week # 35: 27 8. - 2 9. 2007

Day
plan
fact
Monday
leave
leave
Tuesday
8 km freely
bike 35 km
Wednesday
10 km free
bike 53 km
Thursday
leave
leave
Friday
12 km fartlek
2 km 12 km jog
TF @ 161bpm (4:51 / km)
Saturday
8 km freely
bike 59 km uphill
Sunday
32 km at a moderate pace
20 km free
1 hour hockey

Together :
  • run 34 km at 3:06
  • bike 147 km per 7 hours

Friday, August 31, 2007

Gy6 125 Valve Claerance

Weekend behej.com - my toughest run

I was on a cross-country meetings with behej.com and it was super. But that know. I want you to know something else: we ran on Saturday:) All the activity was based on a voluntary basis, everybody can choose according to their abilities and opportunities. Length of lines was 10, 14, 21 and 37 km. I chose dvadsaťjednotku and the first time in modern history of my jogging, I became part dvadsaťčlenného running around the body. The law of energy flow in the system running body reads: body kinetic energy is transformed into emotional energy, which induced euphoria body keeps running regardless of external conditions . Such small self-starter (at least until such time as there is glycogen:).

view of the above Act, our cloth painlessly preplazil Javořice over the top (836 meters) and was headed back to the hotel . The atmosphere along with the body I Marcel spoke about. 3 km before in order to catch up leading pair. So we cut the energy flow, turn on auxiliary combustion and two kilometers wide, we have at 3:50 / km rushed for refugees. Although the intention was released, but this myopic youthful temerity seriously eroded the volitional center of the brain and a secret desire - to participate in the longest running, a desire to be walked.


5 brave:)

ran out after a short break, to return to Javořice, three runners: Milos , Witty and Donkey . Enough, however, a few seconds psychosis and crowd us - me and Marcela - part of the action for the next 16 km. For the donkey and it was Marc najdlší run in life, for me the hardest - the average elevation and 30 ° C templota vypýtali your own. At the same time was also the nakrajší.

Sunday, August 26, 2007

I Wear Pantygirdles Every Day

Weekend behej.com

Treadmill server behej.com organized a meeting of all categories of runners in the Cold Telč . Difficult to write something more than that it was a great event with A: met the great bunch people who, thanks to a successful program and the organization survived the weekend as it should be. And since I overcome the natural laziness in relation to collect megapixels, I have the honor to share my experiences not only in words, but obrazom .

thank the whole team behej.com - for they love running and many of us have been infected by .

Abstract


Javořice Conquering the Hill (836 m) in the administration ultrahvězdy Milos Škorpil and Wittyho .


Javořice is behind us - at this moment, some are unaware of us, that hecnú and can Javořice again (including me).


Milos in educational activities: alphabet jogging, stretching, running technique and of course stories of war :)

Evening regeneration in the bog, which remotely resembled water:)


My little and Kate whose organizational talent heaping contributed to the satisfaction of all of us.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Nipple Piercing Man Or Men Or Guy

White Cross - video

Two weeks ago I wrote about climb White Cross . Most of you probably do not know him and why - the imagery - making video of Congress, which I found on YouTube :

Simpsons Hit And Run Online To Play

Marathon under 3:30 - interval training

morning I woke up and I felt like I went loco. Non-governmental legs, sore throat and a resting heart rate 50 (normal 43 - 46bpm). Blame it on the interval training yesterday - the first in my cross-country career . According training plan I should receive 4x1km pace in the race for ten kilometers, ie 4:20 / km. I enjoyed immensely, to finally have fun even when jogging. Like I do with hockey or cycling. So far I was running only a continuous pace and so when Garmin odpípal beginning of the first interval, I set off with gusto as legs and lungs were sufficient. I repeated the whole four times the rate I burn properly - 3:50 / km - and in the end it was felt. Next week I do the same, but those slots will be ten. There you will have to pace postrážiť (if I do not want to die:)

intervals - in the table

time
TF average
TF max
speed ( km / h)
speed (min / km)
00:03:44
180
193
16,0
3:44/km
00:03:49
187
199
15,7
3:49/km
00:03:47
188
196
15,8
3:47/km
00:03:48
192
200
15.8
3:48 / km


Intervals - the chart


The interval was included in 3 minutes interval. Increasing fatigue, the video on a slower gradient pulse after each itervale.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Pokemon Silver R4 Pokemon Find Cheat

Marathon under 3:30 - the first test

first test kadečo hinting, just do not know what yet:) For now, I will come positive result, but only time will tell. O So what was? Run eight kilometers to the upper limit basic stamina and find a way my current maximum aerobic speed.

distance
time
average rate
speed (km / h)
speed (min / km)
8.11 km
0:42:13
158 bpm
11.5 kph
5:12 / km

base endurance zone constitutes a endurance, in which energy requirements are covered by an aerobic organism, ie, when an adequate supply of oxygen, no accumulation of lactate as a metabolite of glycolysis a large proportion of energy supplied by fat metabolism. In Slovak, this means that the abstract - when an adequate supply of fluids, minerals and carbohydrates - the runner is able to exercise given the intensity or indefinitely. to the point where he will spend fat reserves, which in humans with 10% body fat is about 700 km race (incidentally, one of us hobby runners has only 10%:).

On screen it looks good, but practice is another. With ongoing fatigue beats grow, but not speed. During his first marathon I reached speeds of 5:37 / km. Urdžanie during its first ten miles I needed pulse 164 times per minute. Between the tenth and twentieth was already 167bmp and the next ten kilometers vypýtalo 171bpm. They will therefore need further tests on longer lines - 20 to 30 km - where I try to keep a constant speed and then use analytical skills Microsoft Excel to put a sixth-order polynomial, which has loosely modeled appropriate introductory rate. We will see as will be compatible with the intended speed of 5:00 per km (or even slightly faster, since the need to urinate:).

My training zone

To illustrate my training zones, which are derived from 204th TFmax

band
run
cycling
regeneration
\u0026lt;144
\u0026lt;123
an endurance base
144 to 164
123 to 154
basic endurance 1-2
165 to 174
155 to 174
basic endurance 2
175 to 185
175 to 185
special endurance racing
186 to 194
186 to 194
maximum intensity
195 to 204
195 to 204


Monday, August 20, 2007

Pokemon Soul Silver Usrcheats

Marathon under 3 30 - Training Plan

Training plan is what I always have, but seldom follow it. Despite the fact that I often feel like a slave numbers and my number one hobby is to count steps, speed, watts, beats, kilojoules and look for connection between them, so despite the seriousness of the training plan for accessing relatively lukewarm. Training usually left out, but their contents into the large slant of feeling - it also today I feel like break or today do not feel, so it vyklusám .

Another problem is to reconcile cross country training with bicycle and hockey . Especially when long runs are scheduled for the weekend, as well as bicycle and hockey. After four hours of driving in the hills go as a newly born deer originally intended evening shoes in twenty out of the question. Also on Sunday: 30 km in the morning and evening on-ice workout than five Rohypnol:) Anyway

fact that my effort is prostreníctvom blog became public, I am committed to greater discipline and focus in particular priority to run - thus bring training schedule for this week that I came under public scrutiny and had the following week accountability;)

Monday
10 km free
Tuesday
10 km free
Wednesday
2 km jog
4x1km racing in the 10km pace (with me around. 4:20 min / km) 2 km
výklus
Thursday
10 km free
Friday
leave
Saturday
cross country weekend behej.com
Sunday
cross country weekend behej.com

ability to concentrate - quote quotation

Finally Lance Armstrong on focusing: "Floyd, I explained that I did not win the 1999 Tour because somehow the mystery or miracle doping. It was a good time accurately captured. It was a matter of better training and techniques, my experience with cancer and subsequent willingness to make sacrifices. Therein lies the explanation. If you want to achieve something important, you must have a strong desire and pay attention to detail. If I look at people who have achieved great success in whatever the home sector, you will find that some are charismatic, some not, some are tall, some small, some bold, some poor. But their common denominator is the ability of long-term, persistent focus. "

Monday, July 23, 2007

Do You Need An Extractor Fan In Kitchen

„THEY’RE ALWAYS TELLING ME I’M TOO ANGRY“ - CHRYSTOS

"They're always telling me I'M TOO ANGRY"

CHRYSTOS




Especially when I mention land theft or rape or genocide

They go to therapy to understand themselves

pound anonymous pillows safely with a stranger

in the closed room of improper behavior

There is

no pillow I’m angry with

As far as I’m concerned i’m too tired to be angry enough

Angry that I can’t go anyplace

without seeing demeaning images and outright lies about Indian people

I’m livid that we can’t even keep the few pitiful acres we have left

if they happen to have uranium or copper or coal

Furious that I never feel safe alone on the streets

Angry that other people of Color

are somethimes as oppressive as whites

because whites taught them

everything they think they know about Indians

Riled that an Indian friend asked me why

I hang out with all those Black people

Angry with myself that I wasn’t fast enough to say

Why do you hang out with all those damn white folks

Steaming mad that a million people in this country

which is no longer in a recession

have no place to live

while office buildings sit empty for years

Enraged that you can buy a submachine gun in Florida

about any orher kind of gun any place you want

while the army and the cops amass more than enough weapons to kill

every person on earth

Furious that my cousin got shot in the head

and lives now barely able to say his name

I’m mad as hell at alcohol, crack and child abuse

I could easily kill several million random white folks

just to feel a little balance on this poor earth

But I’ve known since I was little that no matter how many

Of us they kill

it’s only ok for us to help them kill other brown folks

or to cheat each other or hate each other

or to buy stuff and imitate whiteness

or to act like our own people are the real problems

and we’re above it all

This is the pillow i’m hitting without any repercussions

Angry that women are in therapy

while men have increased tenfold raping and murdering

Furious with child porn

the use of children to sell toilet paper and laundry soap

Spitting with rage at intolerance starvation waste greed

all of which are reflected in myself despite my efforts

to seek balance

Boiling mad at my inadequacies and terror

raging that i’m still tortured by terrible nightmares

more than 20 years after I last saw the man

who raped my childhood into razors and nut houses

a man to whom nothing has happened or will happen

a man who did it to many other children

a man who my aunt handed me a picture of and said

This is when we were all such a happy family

though she knows what he did

a man whom even my closest friends tell me i shouldn’t kill

They’re wrong

Furious with the beaten parents who didn’t protect me

because they didn’t think I was worth it

or that they were

who beat me to shut me up

Enraged that the black medical student was suspended

for punching out a white one who wore blackface to a party as a joke

Ha ha it’s so funny when you pretend to be one of us

Ha ha we’re not angry when you do any damn stupid thing you please

then punish us for our feeling in the matter

Ha ha we love it when you buy your children fake tipis and headdresse

and books by whites of our stories with pictures of us

as pink charming savages

Ha ha we’re so happy you want to get rid of us so you can have all our stuff

and rename it and explain it and defame it

I’m enraged with every lying son of a turd

who takes our taxes to go to Bermuda and relax

after spending our money to murder whoever is

the current enemy and it’s sometimes us

I’m spitting with rage that most of my friends can barely scramble by

I’m angry that I cant sleep that I hate myself

that I can’t write as well as I want

because I’m so damn angry I can’t breathe

Furious that nobody else seems to be angry

and they don’t want me to be either

Enraged at this whole sodden rotting mess they keep calling

civilization

as it poisons the air and the water and kills everyone in it’s way

which is so barbaric as to lock up it’s Elders

for the crime of not being able to care for themselves

which thinks of age as disease instead of wisdom

which persists in calling queers sick or depraved or immoral

despite the so-called separation of church and state

which doesn’t exist

Red hot that I have to defend my anger

that sometimes I’m the nice one in comparison

to an even angrier woman

and then I’m treated with more respect

which demeans us both

I’m sick to death of blank eyes/zombie/nice girls

and lesbians who take drugs so they won’t be depressed

as though depression is bad when it is a very rational

response to our lives

and I have spent my life living inside numbing depression

without drugs, gritting my teeth through another hour and resisting suicide

with my bare hands because I can’t bear to let them win

when so many of my loved ones have blown their brains out in despair

I’m disgusted with drunks

and everybody who thinks

they’ve alive only to please themselves

even though some of them are my friends

I’d like to kill reality

which I don’t understand

I want to blow up every stupid university

pretending that it is teaching something new

when all thats happening is that students are officially treated like fools

until they care only about a piece of paper

and whether I have a piece of paper or not

All the pieces of paper all the degrees are burning up in my anger

Everyone will have to face each other as human

I’m sick of everyone who asks

What do you do?

As though some corporate title or college bs

is an identity

I want to tie up all the white supremacists into crosses

set fire to their hatred

I want to fight back with every tendon of my weary body

run by a mind who remembers the toilet taste of jail food

knows the brutality of nut houses

arms that remember straitjackets and forced drugs and the screams

of women being dragged off to shock torture

knowing that to speak up too loudly means to be killed

because decent people

beat pillows or their wives instead of racism or hunger

because the idea of being nice is more important

that the idea of being real

It’s the cotton candy we’ve all been eating

Until I, at least, am sick to death

I’m furious with English-only laws

with Japanese-bashing celebrated

as some kind of special holy clenacut sport

Furious that anti-semitism is as respectable as ever

and everybody who wants to talk about it must be a pushy Jew

I could kill those thousands of people who claim the nazi Holocaust

didn’t happen

I’m angry that as these words rattle out of my mouth

I’m already cutting them back cooling them off

taking the sting out because im afraid of what I might do

if I hear one more damn time

WHY are you so angry?

Raging that common sense and kindness are passé

not quite with it

Angry that breast cancer kills twice as many women

as men who have died of AIDS/SIDA but we’re all

still paying attention to the poor men

as usual

I’m blowing my top about clear cuts, abuse of resources

abuse of workers, torture of animals for testing cosmetics

with the terrifying idea that wearing fur makes a woman sexy or special

with the largest slave labor force in the world which is called

the u.s. bureau of prisons

Sick of everyone watching light-filled shadows on a screen

more important than life

that your average citizen spends more time

adoring those shadows than speaking to their own children

I’m furious with my incoherence

my inability to affect almost everything in my life

I’m angry with everyone who said some appallingly stupid thing

about peace pipes or pow wows or totem poles or tipis

Furious that the accepted ways to solve our pain

are to pay somebody to listen to us

or to adopt some party line without deviation

and preach it to everyone else

or to get high or to buy yet another piece of crap we don’t really need

or to disappear into games

Angry with organized and disorganized religions which fill peoples lives

with ignorant laws or hocus pocus or convince them that pain is holy

although I reserve most of my venom for the catholic church

which ruined my life with lies im still unraveling

I’m angry that none of us lives to our potential

that we’ve frightened into being the least we can be

to survive

Outraged that so much is swept under rugs

that we can barely walk

Furious that almost everyone still uses the word blind

to mean ignorant or insensitive or clumsy

that millions of trees are slaughtered to print romance novels or spy chillers

and every kind of wall street garbage

until I’m ashamed

to put words to paper at all

Most of us can hardly function

poisoned by corporate nonsense

assaulted with unnecessary chemicals

making somebody who hates us a nice fat profit

Angry that my back hurts all the time

from cleaning the houses of the lazy wealthy for 20 years

not one of whom is as intelligent, creative, or powerful as I am

Angry that I’m going to die this angry

and probably not be able to change a damn thing

Enraged that every place I go is inaccessible

even when they’ve altered the bathrooms inside because its the law

when a chair still can’t get up the outside stairs or in the door

At the braille signs inside elevators where there are none outside it

Furious with ignorance and apathy those smug cousins in every family

I cant shut my heart to the pain thudding all around us

Here in my hands are all the faces of those I’ve seen begging

in doorways, on freeway ramps, on sidewalks

begging for change for a meal or a drink

whose desperation is now against the law

This is just the scratched raw surface of my anger

which is fueled by the righteousness

of knowing we don’t have to live this way

We could embrace our profound connections

and our deep differences

learn from each other

Honor each other

begin to live without torturing

If you aren’t as angry as I am we probably shouldn’t try

to talk to each other

because I’m furious with your fear of anger

I’m angry that others are always telling me

that they feel them same way I do but they are afraid to say so

or they dont know how

or they’d lose their job or their lover

If you can speak

you can be angry

if you can’t speak bang your fork

If you’re furious with me

because I haven’t mentioned something

you’re angry about

get busy and write it yourself

There is no such beast as too angry

I’m a canary down this mine of apathy

singing and singing my yelow throat on fire

with this sacred holy purifying

spirit of anger



For Ayofemi Faloyan



Aktualizácia (16.08.2010; upravený preklad)



"ALWAYS TELLING ME THAT I'M TOO ANGRY"

C HRYSTOS

In particular, when I will describe the land theft, rape and genocide

Others go to therapy, to understand

safely anonymous punch pillows for strangers

in a closed room impropriety

I was angry

for any pillow

As for me, I'm too tired, so I was sufficiently angry

angry that I can not go anywhere

without there I saw degrading representation and direct lies of the Indians

I am furious that we can not keep even those few poor hectares that remain to us,

when it arises, that there can be found uranium, copper, or coal

Mad that they will never feel safe alone in the streets

angry that other colored people

are sometimes just as oppressive Whites

whites because they learned

everything they think they know about Indians

angry that one of my Indian friend asked me

why I spend so much time with those blacks

mad at myself that I did not respond to it immediately

Why you spend so much time with those cursed Caucasians

terribly upset that a million people in this country

which is no longer in recession

no place to live

while many office buildings are uninhabited years

furious that it is possible to buy a gun in Florida

or just any other weapon where you just

while army and police accumulate enough weapons to kill

everyone on this planet

Mad because my cousin shot in the head

and now is not able to pronounce his own name

I am so damn mad at alcohol, drugs and child abuse

Feel I could kill hundreds of millions of ordinary whites

only that I finally felt a little balance to this miserable country

But from an early age I knew that no matter how many

of us they kill

we can only kill other colored people

or cheat on each other or hate

or buy products and imitate whites

or pretend that our people are the real problem

and the fact that we have detachment

This is the pillow to the beat without any consequences

angry that women must go to therapy

while men tenfold increase rape and murder

shirty on child pornography

use children to sell toilet paper and laundry soap

upset fasting intolerance, greed waste

which are reflected in me, though

trying to balance

angry at my inability and my fear

furious that still torment me terrible nightmares

more than 20 years after I last saw the man

which raped my childhood to the blades and madhouse

man who was punished or not

man who did the same with many other children

man whose picture I showed my aunt and said

This was when we were still so happy family

even though she knows what I did

man whom I would even by my closest Friends did not kill

are mistaken

furious at the depleted parent who has failed to protect

because they thought that I am not worthy

or they were they

who beat me, so I was quietly

enraged that a black student was expelled from school

considered that hit the white, which as a joke at a party on the face painted black

Ha ha, it is also ridiculous when pretend that you're one of us

Ha ha, we are not at all angry when you make any major stupid thing that you please

and then punish us for our feelings in this matter

Ha ha, love, when you buy your children a false Indian tipi and masks

and books our stories from Caucasians with pictures of us

like pink charming savages

Ha ha we are so happy to be rid of us want to be able to hold all our stuff

and to rename them and explain and defame

I am furious at every motherfucker

who take our taxes to go to Bermuda to relax

after he spent our money to pozabíjal každého, kto je momentálne

jeho nepriateľom a sme to niekedy my

Horím hnevom kvôli tomu, že väčšina mojich priateľov

je sotva schopných prežiť nasledujúci deň

Nahnevaná, že nemôžem spať, že sa nenávidím

že neviem písať tak dobre ako by som chcela

pretože som tak čertovsky nahnevaná, že nedokážem breathe

furious that no one else seems to be angry

and they do not want me to be I

angry at this whole rotten mess that they call

civilization

that kills poisons air, water and kills everyone in its path

that is so barbaric that imprisons its older

for the crime of failure to care for themselves

which looks at age as a disease instead of wisdom

to continue calling homosexuals sick, perverse and immoral

despite so-called separation of church and state

which actually exist

red from anger that I have to defend their anger

that sometimes it's me nice compared

with yet nahnevanejšou woman

and then so treat me with more respect

which both humbles us

I am deathly sick of empty / zombie / cute girls

and lesbians who take drugs that were not depressed

depression as if it were something bad, when it is actually quite rational

response to our lives

and I spent my whole life living in the paralyzing depression

without drugs, škrípuc teeth through another hour and braving

suicide

own hands, because I would not sustain if they won

when so many of my acquaintances have exploded from the brain

despair

I am frustrated drunks

and anyone who thinks

that are here only to enjoy

although some of them are my friends

prefer I murdered reality

you do not understand

I want to blow up any silly college

that pretend to teach something new

when only what is happening there is that the students are there to act as official

fool

until they are just not interested in that piece of paper

and if I have the piece of paper or not

All these pieces of paper, all these titles will burn in my anger

We need to meet face to face as a people

I'm sick of everyone who asks

What are you doing?

As if a business degree or college diploma

was my identity

I want to tie all the racists on crosses

ignite their hatred

I want to put my resistance every sinew of my body depleted

driven mind that remembers the toilet taste Prison diet

knows brutality mad

hands that remember a straitjacket, forced drug and screams

women towed to shock therapy

to know that speak up too loudly would mean death

because decent people

punch pillows or their wives instead of racism and hunger

because the one idea of \u200b\u200bobedience is more important

idea than reality

It's cotton candy, which I ate

until I at least am, sick to death

furious on purely English law

of mocked the Japanese

as if it was a special holy sport

enraged that anti-Semitism is respected as never before

and the only one who can talk about it must be some ambitious Jew

I could kill all those people who claim that the Nazi Holocaust

the acted

I'm angry about that, when these words rushing out of my mouth

now the Suppression and softens

I take them strength because I'm afraid of what I did

it again začujem

Why are you so angry?

Mad, that common sense and kindness are passé

but not quite so

savage that breast cancer kills twice as many women

than men who died of AIDS / SIDA, but still we all

we pay attention to those wretched men

as usual

My anger exploded as the clear cut, because of the diversion of resources

abuse of workers, torture animals for testing cosmetics

with eerie idea that wearing fur makes a woman sexy, exceptional

most slave labor in the world, called

American prison authorities

Sick of the fact that everyone is looking to light the shadows on the screen

and it's important to them than life

that ordinary citizens face more time

worshiping the shadows, than talking to their own children

Mad at your clumsiness

my inability to affect almost everything that is happening in my life

angry at anyone who said something really stupid

of peace pipes, Indian meetings, totemic or tipi stakes

furious that recognized ways to get rid of our pain are

pay someone listened to us

or take some personal philosophy indiscriminately

and preach it to everyone around

or doped or buy back some shit you really do not need

or lose in the gaming

angry and disorganized to organized religions, which fill the lives

stupid rules and hanky or attempt to persuade them that the pain is sacred

although my greatest anger reserves for the Catholic Church

who ruined my life lies, which still have to overcome

annoys me that no one lives their life to the fullest

that are so afraid that what we are trying to at least

only way to survive

outraged that so many things for sweeping under the carpet

that then we can barely walk

furious that almost everyone still uses the word blind

importance of ignorant, insensitive and clumsy

million trees that will fall due to printing romance novels or detective

and any kind of economic waste

until herself blush

write words on paper

Most of us can barely function

when we disturbed corporate nonsense

prepadávaní unnecessary chemicals

and so we get someone who hates us

angry that I am constantly hurting back

upracovania from home lazy wealthy whole 20 years

neither of which is not as intelligent, creative or powerful as I

angry that the die upset

and probably unable to change even the slightest thing

furious that everywhere you go, can not get

although toilets in within the governed, because the law prescribes

when the truck get up the outer stairs or passing through a door

brailove The characters inside the elevator, where there are no out before him

furious on ignorance and apathy, overbearing relatives in each family

I can not close your heart Pounding pain all around us

Here in my hands are all the faces of those whom I saw beg

in the door, on the edge of the highway, on the sidewalks

žobrajúcich the small, the food or drink

despair which is now illegal

This is only scratch the surface of my anger

which draws on honesty

consciousness that we do not live that way

We could take our deep connection

and our deep differences

learn from one another

revere each other

begin to live free from torture

If you're not so angry as I am, we would probably not try

talk

because I am furious that you are afraid of anger

annoys me that others would always say

that they did not feel like myself, but afraid to say

or do not know how

or they could lose their jobs partner or a partner

Where can you talk

know be angry

If you can not talk, trieskaj fork

If upsets

because I forgot to mention something

to what you angry

dare to write it and

There is no beast name "too angry"

I am a canary in the mine apathy

sing and sing until my yellow nevzplanie hrdielko

the sacred purifying

spirit of anger

For Ayofemi Faloyan